Not quite as threatening as the impaler, but still daunting. I’m tired of being the Disappoint-er. What do I mean by that?
I’m so inclined to say yes. I want to say yes to everything. If you came up to me today and told me about a project you love that you need a hand with, I’d be inclined to think through ways that I could help and then commit, regardless of whether or not I have the time to do it well.
That sounds like a good thing, but it’s actually not. In fact, it’s the worst thing. Because just when you need me most, I’ll fail to deliver. I’ve done this several important times in my life. It has cost me largely in the way people are able (or not) to trust me. And it hurts.
I have to turn over a new leaf. It has to stop. I need to stop saying yes. I have to learn to say, that sounds great and I hope it’s very successful, but it’s just not something I can be a part of right now.
I have no idea how to start doing that, but I feel like it’ll be the most significant thing I ever do if I can learn how to do it.